D-DAY.

Friday, September 12, 2008 {5:29 PM}

ITS THE DAY.
the day i will see my grades, the day ms.haban will tell my dad all the foolishness i did during the 1st quarter. ITS THE DAY IM GETTING MY SHUTTERS BACK and its the day... IVE DECIDED TO MOVE ON. i know i cant, but i have to try.
I got hurt, and i dont wanna get hurt about him again. ITS OKAY, FORGET ABOUT ME. dont say a fuckin word to me again, i hate you. i hate you for making me love you. I HATE YOU BECAUSE I FELL FOR YOU SO HARD. I HATE YOU BECAUSE I THOUGHT YOU'RE WORTH IT... I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU THAT I THOUGHT I LOVED ABOUT YOU.

I HATE YOU.
thanks for this broken heart.

im giving up guys for awhile, and saying hi to alchohol alot more.

STUPID CHEN. STUPID.

i gotta go and take a bath.

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I DONT KNOW WHAT I DID TO YOU.

Friday, September 5, 2008 {5:10 AM}

HB?
YEAH TOTALLY.
i dont know what the heck i did, i know i didnt screw up cos i know im dead fuckin serious about him.
i had a hard time crying awhile ago.. cos celina and kat wasnt there.
I had a hard time telling people what happened. i cried like a river, and it was actually the first time i cried like that to a guy, yes he's not worth it, every guy i like is not worth it pero ang tanga ko still holding on to him. i wanna know what i did that made him hate me. he's unfair, very unfair. thanks to you for this broken heart.

PS. IM STILL NOT OVER YOU.

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love?

Thursday, September 4, 2008 {3:08 AM}

Hey, you.
Its been awhile since ive been here, school's just blah... and intrams is comming.
tiring, but fun. drama's over and i guess im kinda happy now... since someone's making me smile every morning. hehe. i used to hate this school year, but i think its getting.. uhh... OKAY. ive been avoiding drama's lately, and i dont wanna get caught in one again. I pretty much hang out with the boys these days, they just make me feel oh-so-welcome, eventhough im a girl. Usually when i go with the girls, i get OUT OF PLACE, i dont know what the heck are they talking about sometimes, so i'd rather go hang out with the boys, i get them.. even those green stuffs they always talk about, and theyre very fun to be with. so i sometimes just choose to go with the boys rather than the girls... they laugh too much. haha

anyway, yesterday i felt like crying with no reason. im weird, i know.
i feel like crying again today... i dont know if he's avoiding me or what. well, whatever. we're just friends anyway... but he said sorry twice?! ugh. whatever. forget about it.

tatah!

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